“People always say that it hurts at night and apparently screaming into your pillow at 3am is the romantic equivalent of being heartbroken. But sometimes it’s 9am on a Tuesday morning and you’re standing at the kitchen bench waiting for the toast to pop up. And the smell of dusty sunlight and earl gray tea makes you miss him so much you don’t know what to do with your hands.”—Rosie Scanlan, “On Missing Them” (via rawkiss)
I think one of the reasons I am so serious about passive sin is because I’ve seen how blinded I was to it during the course of my eating disorder. I definitely still am sick mentally and physically but I see how the Devil tried to get me to commit suicide multiple times. he’s planted it as a seed in my life but I can’t let it bloom.